January 31, 2014
People shouldn't be treated the way that I'm treated.
I don't know if you're warring with Leonardo DiCaprio; I hope not. He won't improve if those of his friends who are arguably more mature, at least about some things, than he is stop speaking to him entirely.
I'm not telling you what to do; I'm telling you what I would like you to do.
I'm sure he's horrible to be around when he's feeling abusive, and I would bet that's painful, to be treated badly because you're female, after years of being friends.
When you don't feel like talking to him, don't. I wouldn't let him around your children at this time, either.
Why don't you try staying friends with him when you're able to be friends with him, and tell him what your thoughts are about women, women's rights, and other things? He might have questions, don't you think? He might not; if he does think of one, though, it would help if he knew he could ask you about it. "What's important to women?" "Do you think I'm doing something wrong?" "What are relationships like from your perspective?" "What did it seem to you that men were like when we were younger?" Those are a few questions; there are tons, though.
I doubt he'll be trying to create friendships with other women his age; even if he did, it would take years for him to develop the sort of friendship he had with you.
Dialogue is better than war.
I don't want him to be part of my life, ever. I'm not feeling particularly friendly about you, either. However, he's done the things that he's done because he's ignorant, and because other people who know better or who were supposed to know better have behaved horribly and taken the rest of the world with them to disaster.
It doesn't help people to improve their lives, it doesn't prevent them from getting worse, when their friends leave before they have to.
If you feel that you can't be friends with him, then that's how you feel. I hope that I'm not a vindictive enough person to wish serious, personal pain on an enemy when that pain might be avoidable.
Copyright L. Kochman, January 31, 2014 @ 8:18 p.m.
Friday, January 31, 2014
RYAN PHILLIPPE: YOU SHOULD KNOW TO STAY AWAY FROM ME FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE!
Copyright L. Kochman, January 31, 2014 @ 1:49 p.m.
I shouldn't have to keep reprinting pages at every blog; people have read them and should realize that they apply.
Copyright L. Kochman, January 31, 2014 @ 1:44 p.m.
Monday, January 27, 2014
Should I learn Braille?
January 27, 2014
Since I realized that the conglomerate thinks it's hilarious, rather than a sickening, dehumanizing invasion of my privacy, to videotape me in bathrooms, I have turned off the light everywhere that I have had to visit a bathroom, whenever I could turn the light off.
This afternoon, it occurred to me that I haven't read in the bathroom in years. Even after I got my apartment last year and didn't have to share a bathroom with other people, I haven't read in the bathroom once.
Reading in the bathtub was something that I liked to do; I wistfully think of the time in my life when I didn't have to worry about something other than the safety of the pages of whatever I was reading.
I don't know when I might be able to have a bath with candles in the bathroom.
These are not expensive or elite pastimes; like many of the things that the conglomerate has stolen from me with hateful glee, they are things that I have every right to do and that I can't do.
What the conglomerate and those who subscribe to a conglomerate way of thinking seem to expect me to do is to prove that I don't deserve to be harassed, stalked, continuously discriminated against, and sexually assaulted through voyeurism and other means. I'm supposed to spend an indefinite amount of time proving this; years, if not forever. I'm supposed to prove it by being as dowdy as possible; then the conglomerate attacks me for being ugly and portrays me as being a hilariously pathetic, middle-aged masturbator. I'm supposed to eliminate all sensuality from my life, while the conglomerate tells the world that men my age should be having sex with teenagers and that all adults should be dealing with their sexual insecurities not by learning mature, educated sexual expression but by having sex with children.
I'm not the one who's blind.
Copyright L. Kochman, January 27, 2014 @ 5:42 p.m.
Since I realized that the conglomerate thinks it's hilarious, rather than a sickening, dehumanizing invasion of my privacy, to videotape me in bathrooms, I have turned off the light everywhere that I have had to visit a bathroom, whenever I could turn the light off.
This afternoon, it occurred to me that I haven't read in the bathroom in years. Even after I got my apartment last year and didn't have to share a bathroom with other people, I haven't read in the bathroom once.
Reading in the bathtub was something that I liked to do; I wistfully think of the time in my life when I didn't have to worry about something other than the safety of the pages of whatever I was reading.
I don't know when I might be able to have a bath with candles in the bathroom.
These are not expensive or elite pastimes; like many of the things that the conglomerate has stolen from me with hateful glee, they are things that I have every right to do and that I can't do.
What the conglomerate and those who subscribe to a conglomerate way of thinking seem to expect me to do is to prove that I don't deserve to be harassed, stalked, continuously discriminated against, and sexually assaulted through voyeurism and other means. I'm supposed to spend an indefinite amount of time proving this; years, if not forever. I'm supposed to prove it by being as dowdy as possible; then the conglomerate attacks me for being ugly and portrays me as being a hilariously pathetic, middle-aged masturbator. I'm supposed to eliminate all sensuality from my life, while the conglomerate tells the world that men my age should be having sex with teenagers and that all adults should be dealing with their sexual insecurities not by learning mature, educated sexual expression but by having sex with children.
I'm not the one who's blind.
Copyright L. Kochman, January 27, 2014 @ 5:42 p.m.
01/27/14: Reprint of: 12/24/13: A synopsis of the essentials of my code policies
December 24, 2013
The conglomerate attacked me so much and for so long, using its own interpretations of everything that I said or did to make accusations about me, that I finally felt that I wouldn’t be able to publish so much as a sentence without writing some policies describing my thoughts and plans about code.
For a long time, I republished my code policies at the beginning of each day of writing. Then, I stopped doing that because I figured that people understood the policies.
It's been a while since I have republished them; there are many reprints of them on one of my previous WordPress blogs, "whilehomeless."
I'll try to provide a synopsis of some of their essentials here:
--If I use code, I'll say that's what I'm doing. I'll indicate its presence by saying "code" or in some other way that states in so many words that the code is there.
--There are some words that were already prevalent in written or spoken language before the conglomerate happened. The conglomerate should not be allowed to mangle language and cause people who don't support the conglomerate to go into agonized contortions trying to avoid the natural word for a sentence. If something is "new," you can't say that it's "not old" all the time; you have to say that it's new. A lot of words are that way.
--Then there's the fact that language is meant to be varied, interesting and expressive rather than monotonous and threatening or monotonous and fearful. There are a lot of words that might not get used all the time but that are good words that the conglomerate should be prevented from stealing and distorting for nefarious purposes.
People who use a lot of conglomerate-supportive code words at once, or who use a conglomerate-supportive code word in a prominent and gratuitous way, are probably and unfortunately supporting the conglomerate. That's not the same thing as people who are trying to write and speak normally and who don't want the conglomerate to control them.
Copyright L. Kochman, December 24, 2013 @ 7:32 p.m.
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Sunday, January 26, 2014
They're not baldness treatments; they are glare-diminishing techniques.
January 27, 2014
Even stalkers don't deserve to be blinded by the light from their cars being reflected by my scalp at night.
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Even stalkers don't deserve to be blinded by the light from their cars being reflected by my scalp at night.
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01/26/14: Reprint of: 12/24/13: A synopsis of the essentials of my code policies
December 24, 2013
The conglomerate attacked me so much and for so long, using its own interpretations of everything that I said or did to make accusations about me, that I finally felt that I wouldn’t be able to publish so much as a sentence without writing some policies describing my thoughts and plans about code.
For a long time, I republished my code policies at the beginning of each day of writing. Then, I stopped doing that because I figured that people understood the policies.
It's been a while since I have republished them; there are many reprints of them on one of my previous WordPress blogs, "whilehomeless."
I'll try to provide a synopsis of some of their essentials here:
--If I use code, I'll say that's what I'm doing. I'll indicate its presence by saying "code" or in some other way that states in so many words that the code is there.
--There are some words that were already prevalent in written or spoken language before the conglomerate happened. The conglomerate should not be allowed to mangle language and cause people who don't support the conglomerate to go into agonized contortions trying to avoid the natural word for a sentence. If something is "new," you can't say that it's "not old" all the time; you have to say that it's new. A lot of words are that way.
--Then there's the fact that language is meant to be varied, interesting and expressive rather than monotonous and threatening or monotonous and fearful. There are a lot of words that might not get used all the time but that are good words that the conglomerate should be prevented from stealing and distorting for nefarious purposes.
People who use a lot of conglomerate-supportive code words at once, or who use a conglomerate-supportive code word in a prominent and gratuitous way, are probably and unfortunately supporting the conglomerate. That's not the same thing as people who are trying to write and speak normally and who don't want the conglomerate to control them.
Copyright L. Kochman, December 24, 2013 @ 7:32 p.m.
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Friday, January 24, 2014
01/24/14: Reprint of: 12/24/13: A synopsis of the essentials of my code policies
December 24, 2013
The
conglomerate attacked me so much and for so long, using its own interpretations
of everything that I said or did to make accusations about me, that I finally
felt that I wouldn’t be able to publish so much as a sentence without writing
some policies describing my thoughts and plans about code.
For a long
time, I republished my code policies at the beginning of each day of
writing. Then, I stopped doing that because I figured that people
understood the policies.
It's been
a while since I have republished them; there are many reprints of them on one
of my previous WordPress blogs, "whilehomeless."
I'll try
to provide a synopsis of some of their essentials here:
--If I use
code, I'll say that's what I'm doing. I'll indicate its presence by
saying "code" or in some other way that states in so many words that
the code is there.
--There
are some words that were already prevalent in written or spoken language before
the conglomerate happened. The conglomerate should not be allowed to
mangle language and cause people who don't support the conglomerate to go into
agonized contortions trying to avoid the natural word for a sentence. If
something is "new," you can't say that it's "not old" all
the time; you have to say that it's new. A lot of words are that way.
--Then
there's the fact that language is meant to be varied, interesting and
expressive rather than monotonous and threatening or monotonous and
fearful. There are a lot of words that might not get used all the time
but that are good words that the conglomerate should be prevented from stealing
and distorting for nefarious purposes.
People who
use a lot of conglomerate-supportive code words at once, or who use a
conglomerate-supportive code word in a prominent and gratuitous way, are
probably and unfortunately supporting the conglomerate. That's not the
same thing as people who are trying to write and speak normally and who don't
want the conglomerate to control them.
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Questions of judgment
January 24, 2014
I wrote a post at this blog last night that I didn’t think
about a lot before I published it. I had
read about something and had a funny thought all of a sudden, and, even though
I had a feeling that it might not be a good idea to publish it, I did.
I spend a lot of time trying to control my anger about the
conglomerate. Sometimes I’m able to talk
about what I’m thinking without being controlled by my anger, and sometimes I’m
not.
Being able to tell a joke about something that’s serious
doesn’t mean that what’s happening isn’t serious. Not every joke has to be told; I think that I
tend to worry less about saying things that I think are funny than about saying
things when I’m enraged, and I should probably try to be concerned about the
things I say even when rage isn’t controlling me.
Copyright L. Kochman, January 24, 2014 @ 7:11 a.m.
Thursday, January 23, 2014
Ryan Phillippe
January 23, 2014
You have done everything that I don’t like and
that I have every reason to dislike. Like
everyone else in your crowd of people, you exploited me and then blamed me for
every problem that happened. You have never
stopped being disrespectful. You have
never stopped doing and promoting things that are personally harmful for me and
that are detrimental to everything that I have tried to achieve since
2010. You have promoted all of the
things that I have written and spoken against.
I don’t want people hacking my phone, tablet, computer, or
anything else. I don’t want people
trying to interact with me that way; you and others have continued to do that,
and you have also used those illegal means to hit on other people and to try to
advance your professional and political goals.
It seems to me that your attitude toward me is that you
never thought you would end up liking me as much as you did. If you didn’t think that you would like me,
why did you show interest about me? If
seems as if you showed that interest to exploit me and to get dating, work, and
other opportunities that you wouldn’t have gotten if I hadn’t paid positive
attention to you. Even though you never
thought you would like me that much and you only showed interest to get things
from me, you blamed me for the fact that you ended up liking me and that you
suffered some heartache about me.
Your horrible behavior is the reason that things didn’t work
out with me, and you take no responsibility for that; rather, you even used
that heartache as an excuse to continue to use my phone, tablet, and computer
to flirt with other people and exploit me in all of the ways I have
mentioned.
You don’t respect or care about me or the things that are
important to me; you never have.
If you or others have been living in suspense about whether
or not I’m interested in dating you, you don’t have to live in that suspense; I’m
not, and I won’t be.
I wrote the notes for this when I was in the crisis stabilization
unit; I knew then that this was something I should probably write. I don’t even think about you that much; I haven't, for a while,
except as the threat to me and the things that I care about that you are.
Copyright L. Kochman, January 23, 2014 @ 10:28 a.m.
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Sunday, January 12, 2014
Ryan Phillippe: I don't know if you're trying to stay in contact with me or not.
The conglomerate is evil.
You are part of the conglomerate.
I couldn't care less about how you feel about me; what I don't want you to do is to continue to abuse me.
When adolescents behave badly, it's annoying and often dangerous. When people my age behave like badly behaved adolescents, it's annoying, dangerous and not something with which I have patience.
I think that you and everybody else in the conglomerate have conveniently forgotten who has gotten harmed; it's not you, it's me. I don't owe you; please stop acting like I do.
Copyright L. Kochman, January 12, 2014 @ 9:33 a.m.
You are part of the conglomerate.
I couldn't care less about how you feel about me; what I don't want you to do is to continue to abuse me.
When adolescents behave badly, it's annoying and often dangerous. When people my age behave like badly behaved adolescents, it's annoying, dangerous and not something with which I have patience.
I think that you and everybody else in the conglomerate have conveniently forgotten who has gotten harmed; it's not you, it's me. I don't owe you; please stop acting like I do.
Copyright L. Kochman, January 12, 2014 @ 9:33 a.m.
Emma Watson: If you don't want to be judged, STOP DOING BAD THINGS!
And stop thinking that your easy life means that you're a good person; it doesn't mean that.
Some people don't have difficult lives, and are good people.
Some people have difficult lives, and are bad people.
You have an easy life, and are a bad person.
It's also incredible, how many people in the conglomerate and out of it, smugly dismiss all of the damage that's been done to me as something that's my problem, and not something that they caused, even while they continue to use me and envy me.
Why don't you deal with your life? If that were something you tried to do, instead of excusing being the bad person that you are, you might find that you have difficulty; most people do, when they're trying to do something that has value and are trying to be someone who has integrity and concern for other people.
Copyright L. Kochman, January 12, 2014 @ 9:23 a.m.
Some people don't have difficult lives, and are good people.
Some people have difficult lives, and are bad people.
You have an easy life, and are a bad person.
It's also incredible, how many people in the conglomerate and out of it, smugly dismiss all of the damage that's been done to me as something that's my problem, and not something that they caused, even while they continue to use me and envy me.
Why don't you deal with your life? If that were something you tried to do, instead of excusing being the bad person that you are, you might find that you have difficulty; most people do, when they're trying to do something that has value and are trying to be someone who has integrity and concern for other people.
Copyright L. Kochman, January 12, 2014 @ 9:23 a.m.
It's incredible how many failures and nobodies have advanced their careers by abusing me.
They don't care about the Wet Floor signs everywhere.
They don't care about the Caution cones, or other signs and signals that are abused.
They don't care about all of the taxpayer money that gets spent--millions of dollars by now--for fake projects that are only meant to promote the conglomerate's hideous agenda.
They don't care about all of the harm that they inflict on others.
I have NEVER BEFORE seen such ignorant and selfish people. I thought that I had already encountered some of the worse, not the worst, but the worse things that life has to offer; I had, but none of it prepared me for the neverending conglomerate parade of greed, selfishness, stupidity, and destructive behavior.
In addition to all of that, they are proud of what they've done, and they continue to tell themselves and other people that I'm the one who's bad, and that what they're doing to me is just what I deserve.
There. No swearing in that. How about a few other words, some of which you've heard me say before?
Vicious.
Hateful.
Heedless
Pathetic. No, you are pathetic; no amount of money causes people who are this horrible to be, ultimately, something other than pathetic. It could be that nothing that I think should happen ever does, that the conglomerate wins about everything, and my life continues toward the path of total ruin that you have never stopped trying to turn it into. That would mean that evil, STUPID, HATEFUL, VICIOUS, PATHETIC LOSERS were able to harm other people, because there were more of them and they had more power, AND THAT'S THE ONLY THING IT WOULD MEAN!
Then, of course, there are the people who already were successful, who have also advanced their careers by abusing me. I don't even know a word for that; no more than I'll ever know, I hope, what it's like to be someone who would do that.
I don't hate you because you've won. It's not jealousy that causes me to LOATHE you. You're wrong, and you've won; that's what my anger is about. That you don't know how deserving of contempt you are, and why, is part of why you deserve it.
Copyright L. Kochman, January 12, 2014 @ 9:12 a.m.
They don't care about the Caution cones, or other signs and signals that are abused.
They don't care about all of the taxpayer money that gets spent--millions of dollars by now--for fake projects that are only meant to promote the conglomerate's hideous agenda.
They don't care about all of the harm that they inflict on others.
I have NEVER BEFORE seen such ignorant and selfish people. I thought that I had already encountered some of the worse, not the worst, but the worse things that life has to offer; I had, but none of it prepared me for the neverending conglomerate parade of greed, selfishness, stupidity, and destructive behavior.
In addition to all of that, they are proud of what they've done, and they continue to tell themselves and other people that I'm the one who's bad, and that what they're doing to me is just what I deserve.
There. No swearing in that. How about a few other words, some of which you've heard me say before?
Vicious.
Hateful.
Heedless
Pathetic. No, you are pathetic; no amount of money causes people who are this horrible to be, ultimately, something other than pathetic. It could be that nothing that I think should happen ever does, that the conglomerate wins about everything, and my life continues toward the path of total ruin that you have never stopped trying to turn it into. That would mean that evil, STUPID, HATEFUL, VICIOUS, PATHETIC LOSERS were able to harm other people, because there were more of them and they had more power, AND THAT'S THE ONLY THING IT WOULD MEAN!
Then, of course, there are the people who already were successful, who have also advanced their careers by abusing me. I don't even know a word for that; no more than I'll ever know, I hope, what it's like to be someone who would do that.
I don't hate you because you've won. It's not jealousy that causes me to LOATHE you. You're wrong, and you've won; that's what my anger is about. That you don't know how deserving of contempt you are, and why, is part of why you deserve it.
Copyright L. Kochman, January 12, 2014 @ 9:12 a.m.
Sunday, January 5, 2014
There's nothing wrong with being beautiful.
There's something wrong with saying that beautiful is the only thing worth being.
Copyright L. Kochman, January 5, 2014 @ 6:55 p.m.
Copyright L. Kochman, January 5, 2014 @ 6:55 p.m.
Wednesday, January 1, 2014
Sometimes, people get sick. That is also true of groups of people.
January 1, 2014
The entire world is run according to a male-dominated system, and it has been that way, almost without exception, forever.
Copyright L. Kochman, January 1, 2014 @ 5:17 p.m.
The entire world is run according to a male-dominated system, and it has been that way, almost without exception, forever.
Copyright L. Kochman, January 1, 2014 @ 5:17 p.m.