Coughing

November 18, 2014

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Copyright the entire page, L. Kochman, November 18, 2014 @ 11:37 p.m.

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Why do people hate me so much?

Persistent, female coughing @ 11:52 p.m.

@ 11:54 p.m., by someone who was outside my room.  Maybe they've made a game of it, coughing whenever they're near my room, to amuse each other

Male grunting @ 11:57 p.m.

Female coughing @ 11:59 p.m.

One of the male security guards seems to be spending a lot of time outside my room, which has a glass wall.  Another security guard jumped out in front of the wall when I first got to the Emergency Room and then ran back to the other part of the hall.  I think they want to know what I look like, and what I'm doing, famous me, with no privacy ever.

Female coughing while I wrote that paragraph, and this sentence @ 12:04 a.m.

People really hate me.  They believe whatever it is that they've heard.

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Persistent, female coughing @ 12:07 a.m.

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@ 12:16 a.m. when someone passed by my room

They think I deserve it.  Few people would treat someone like this whom they didn't think deserved it.

Hours of abuse.  At least I'm not surprised.

Very loud coughing @ 12:20 a.m.  Maybe they're frustrated that I seem to be ignoring their behavior.  Do they want me to run out of my room, screaming, so they can lie to me and laugh in my face?

If they only knew that the opinion of evil and/or ignorant people means nothing to me, and that my anger is the result of not being able to stop the abuse and not because I care what they think.  

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So far, no Emergency Room has been without staff who think they have time to spend hours harassing me.

Female coughing when she walked past my room, and again a second later, and she's still coughing @ 12:25 a.m.  She just walked into my room and asked me if I needed anything.  I told her that I didn't, and she walked out of my room with her elbow over her face, coughing.  I guess she has wanted my attention and she finally got desperate enough for that attention that she walked right into my room and pretended to care if I needed something.  I don't know if she'll ever read this blog or not; she might never know how much of my attention she has gotten.

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People don't want to think about what a horrible place the world would be if what is happening to me could happen to someone who doesn't deserve it.  So, they believe that I deserve it, and they don't want to know that I don't.

How else could people emotionally torment someone, for hours, in an Emergency Room or psychiatric facility?  What would it mean about what kind of people they are, if they did that to someone who didn't deserve it?

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@ 12:55 a.m. It's my nurse, coughing loudly before she walked into my room.

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I haven't said anything to anyone about it.  I haven't confronted anyone about the hours of abuse that I have now been through at this Emergency Room.  I haven't raised my voice to anyone.  I have also done nothing at all that would confirm to even the most unreasonable person that I deserve the abuse, and yet the abuse continues, and they're smiling while they do it.

@ 1:02 a.m.

The nurse doesn't seem to think she should walk into or out of or past my room without coughing loudly.  She smiles when she's talking to me, and has yet to say a rude word to me, but she obviously hates me as much as any stranger who harasses me every day.  @ 1:57 a.m.

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Louder @ 2:08 a.m.

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@ 2:17 a.m, louder.  This nurse HATES me, and I have never met her before in my life.