If John Mayer weren't being horrible to me

January 4, 2015

it would not make me someone other than who I am.  It would not give my arguments against the conglomerate's agenda more or less value.  

What it might do, which seems to me to be the reason that the conglomerate wants to prevent him or any famous person with a lot of fans from being other than horrible to me, is weaken the conglomerate's ability to persuade the public that I'm a loser whom everyone hates and who deserves to be hated.  Because I criticize the conglomerate, the conglomerate wants to isolate me and to make the world believe that I am a bad, stupid, slutty person.  People of discernment who are observing the situation already know that I am not what the conglomerate wants the public to think I am. 

It's almost funny because I sometimes worry about my ability to be nice to anyone who might suddenly be nice to me if I started to date a celebrity.  It's almost easier to have people hate me for no reason than it might be to have to deal with people who would suck up to me for no reason, or who would offer me approval that they would otherwise deny me, just because of a celebrity boyfriend.

I don't know what I would say to people who seemed to me to be the type to abuse me except that I had somehow started dating a celebrity.  I think that I would feel contempt for and exasperation with them; pretty much what I feel for them now, and sadness for their shallowness.  Whether I showed all of that or not, I think I would feel it.

Copyright L. Kochman, January 4, 2015 @ 11:50 p.m.