No matter how angry I get, I never advocate for people to be harmed for no reason.

July 20, 2014

The conglomerate never stops shrieking that I deserve whatever it wants to inflict on me, and it never stops excusing and denying its abusive behavior toward me and its other targets.

Nobody should underestimate my hatred of the conglomerate's agenda, or overestimate any positive attachment that I ever had to anyone who participated in promoting that agenda.  For a long time, I hoped that I could dissuade people who promoted that agenda from continuing their destructive behavior.  I did that to the detriment of my health, reputation and living situation.  I tried to encourage the side of those people that was not corrupted; mostly what happened was that they felt entitled to disrespect me and exploit me, and I ended up feeling perpetually angry, bitter, suspicious and totally incapable of forgiving.

Of course, forgiveness which precedes a sincere apology from the offender and the offender's real change of behavior is naive.  I don't think that the hateful, vicious conglomerate chorus thinks of me as being naive; I think it chooses to think of me as too sexual for a woman and greedy for money.  If it were to stop thinking of me that way, the truth would lead the people who would rather think of me that way to have to confront their rabid abuse of me.

Even an evil person could not deserve the sickening abuse that the conglomerate inflicts on me and on the other human beings whom it consistently dehumanizes while it denies its rapacious and murderous behavior.

Dealing with the conglomerate's obdurate stupidity, its obsessive nitpicking, its destructive and pathetic worship of clique-building, its misinterpretations, distortions and flat-out lies; all of that is tiring and infuriating and drives me toward a type of misanthropy that I have never felt before.

I always thought my feelings about the conglomerate's behavior were neatly summed up with words such as "raging a-holes" and "total morons," and nobody is more surprised than I at the conglomerate's apparent need for years of more explicit explanations.


Copyright L. Kochman, July 20, 2014 @ 8:31 p.m./edited @ 8:34 p.m.