I think it was after many years that I realized that there are women who try to figure out what the men who interest them want and then try to be whatever that is. It's a stereotype of female behavior that a lot of women continue to inhabit, isn't it?
I don't do that. I never did that. When I liked a guy, I tried to get him to like me; the me that I was, not the version I thought was closest to what he wanted after I had carefully studied him and schemed about how to snag him. I did no careful studying of guys or snag-scheming.
I did not date as many people as I could have, I suppose. Most everything was a failure, at least after a while. I do not, though, have regret over having spent years being someone other than whoever I was. I have sadness over many of the years I spent being unhappy, but I couldn't help that, and at least I was honestly unhappy. I knew I was unhappy.
Copyright L. Kochman, December 24, 2014 @ 11:16 p.m.
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