Lack of feminine wiles

December 24, 2014

I think it was after many years that I realized that there are women who try to figure out what the men who interest them want and then try to be whatever that is.  It's a stereotype of female behavior that a lot of women continue to inhabit, isn't it?

I don't do that.  I never did that.  When I liked a guy, I tried to get him to like me; the me that I was, not the version I thought was closest to what he wanted after I had carefully studied him and schemed about how to snag him.  I did no careful studying of guys or snag-scheming.

I did not date as many people as I could have, I suppose.  Most everything was a failure, at least after a while.  I do not, though, have regret over having spent years being someone other than whoever I was.  I have sadness over many of the years I spent being unhappy, but I couldn't help that, and at least I was honestly unhappy.  I knew I was unhappy.

Copyright L. Kochman, December 24, 2014 @ 11:16 p.m.