Arbour HRI Hospital records

January 7, 2015

This picture and the next are of some of the notes written about me when I was discharged from the hospital on October 28, 2014.

The only thing that the doctor ever said to me about medication was "You're not taking enough of it."  There were no discussions that he initiated about the risks.  Most psychiatrists minimize or deny the side effects that psychiatric medications have, or place the entire burden of coping with those symptoms on the patient.  Particularly weight gain is pushed onto the patient as being the patient's responsibility to deal with, even though many psychiatric medications cause people to gain a lot of weight that they can't lose no matter what they do.  

I have started going to the gym and also walking to and from the train station to the crisis unit.  I have been doing that for a couple of weeks.  Yesterday, I probably walked a total of almost 10 miles.  I usually weigh 121 to 124 without exercising, and have to eat a lot when I am exercising so that I don't lose too much weight.  Since I started taking medication while at the Arbour HRI Hospital, the least I have weighed is 132 pounds; that's with exercise and also not eating whenever I feel like it.

Sarcasm Alert:  That's what everyone always says about me, that I have poor awareness and understanding, no insight, chronically bad judgment, that I can't be goal-oriented to save my life and am the most hapless, resourceless person who ever lived.  I am one dumb cluck.  It's so sad for me that I'm "difficult" for someone like this doctor to "redirect."

End of Sarcasm Alert

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The next pictures are of notes from the hospital's medical doctors, from October 4 to October 26, 2014.  

My "paranoia" is their answer to almost everything.  No matter what happens, according to them, I'm paranoid.

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The next pictures are of notes from October 16, 2014.  They show a list of medications that I have never been prescribed at that hospital or anywhere else, with the exception of Trazodone.  An outpatient prescriber gave me a prescription for Trazodone last year.  I tried it once to help me sleep at the shelter; the next day, I woke up with a migraine and nausea that were so bad that I was crumpled into a chair at the shelter for hours.  I never took it again, and threw out the rest of those pills.  I never told anyone at any hospital that I was regularly prescribed Trazodone, because I never was.

Did the doctor who wrote these notes confuse me with another patient?

When I did have a medication reaction while at this hospital, I was refused access to a medical hospital.  The 911 operator was laughing at me on the phone because he had sent the ambulance to this hospital and the staff had told the ambulance to leave.  I was not only negatively written about in the notes about the incident, I was also screamed at by a nursing supervisor the day after it happened and sent to a more disturbed unit.  When I directly called an Emergency Room at a medical hospital the day after the incident, feeling many physical effects from what had happened the night before, the person who answered the phone at the ER hung up on me when I told her that I was a patient calling from a mental hospital.

What could have happened to me if someone had given me medications from

another patient's medication list and I'd had a truly life-threatening, physical reaction?  What could, and does, happen to anyone who is a patient in a mental hospital?  Do the staff blame patient death on patient "paranoia," also?  "The nerve of that patient who just died!  Some people are so difficult to redirect!"

Copyright, with noted exceptions, L. Kochman, January 7, 2015 @ 4:35 p.m.