Things I Wrote: November 2014

Wednesday, November 19, 2014

One of the cars following the ambulance to the hospital

November 19, 2014

This always happens. Whenever I'm brought to a hospital, child molesters and voyeurs follow the ambulance.

The license plate of that car is 955 XP8.

The abuse that never stops

November 19, 2014

I slept for a few hours. Someone I hadn't met before just took my vital signs. He left the door to my room partially open while he did that, and someone outside the room started vomit-coughing.

The coughing has continued, even though the person who took my vital signs left my room and closed the door; I can hear it through the closed door.

Total strangers are programmed to hate me. It happens everywhere.

@ 7:51 a.m.

Loud, male coughing outside the bathroom when I'm in the bathroom @ 8:13 a.m.

Tuesday, November 18, 2014

Coughing

November 19, 2014

@ 2:44 a.m.

A male security guard is walking back and forth in front of the glass wall of my room.

All that's missing is a plaque on the glass wall or next to it, something that describes the animal in the cage.

Blog stars

November 19, 2014

One of the women who has been harassing me all night brought me to another room, and made the vomit "Huh" sound that many harassers like to make, after she had brought me to this room.

That's a picture of the mouse pad for the computer in this room.

I went to the restroom; she or the other woman (male coughing now) coughed outside the restroom door. They were both standing outside the restroom when I left it. The one who had brought me to this room put her arm over her face and started a series of coughs that I interrupted by saying "You have pages at my blog." She looked startled, which she was; I'm sure that she and everyone else who has bullied me all night had gotten cozy with their activities and did not think that anything would happen because of their behavior.

At least I have documented what they've done. Somebody might listen, someday.

Coughing

November 18, 2014

@ 11:35 p.m.

@ 11:38 p.m.

@ 11:44 p.m.

@ 11:49 p.m.

@ 11:51 p.m.

Why do people hate me so much?

Persistent, female coughing @ 11:52 p.m.

@ 11:54 p.m., by someone who was outside my room. Maybe they've made a game of it, coughing whenever they're near my room, to amuse each other

Male grunting @ 11:57 p.m.

Female coughing @ 11:59 p.m.

One of the male security guards seems to be spending a lot of time outside my room, which has a glass wall. Another security guard jumped out in front of the wall when I first got to the Emergency Room and then ran back to the other part of the hall. I think they want to know what I look like, and what I'm doing, famous me, with no privacy ever.

Female coughing while I wrote that paragraph, and this sentence @ 12:04 a.m.

People really hate me. They believe whatever it is that they've heard.

@ 12:06 a.m.

Persistent, female coughing @ 12:07 a.m.

@ 12:08 a.m.

@ 12:10 a.m.

@ 12:13 a.m.

@ 12:16 a.m. when someone passed by my room

They think I deserve it. Few people would treat someone like this whom they didn't think deserved it.

Hours of abuse. At least I'm not surprised.

Very loud coughing @ 12:20 a.m. Maybe they're frustrated that I seem to be ignoring their behavior. Do they want me to run out of my room, screaming, so they can lie to me and laugh in my face?

If they only knew that the opinion of evil and/or ignorant people means nothing to me, and that my anger is the result of not being able to stop the abuse and not because I care what they think.

@ 12:23 a.m.

So far, no Emergency Room has been without staff who think they have time to spend hours harassing me.

Female coughing when she walked past my room, and again a second later, and she's still coughing @ 12:25 a.m. She just walked into my room and asked me if I needed anything. I told her that I didn't, and she walked out of my room with her elbow over her face, coughing. I guess she has wanted my attention and she finally got desperate enough for that attention that she walked right into my room and pretended to care if I needed something. I don't know if she'll ever read this blog or not; she might never know how much of my attention she has gotten.

@ 12:30 a.m.

@ 12:32 a.m.

People don't want to think about what a horrible place the world would be if what is happening to me could happen to someone who doesn't deserve it. So, they believe that I deserve it, and they don't want to know that I don't.

How else could people emotionally torment someone, for hours, in an Emergency Room or psychiatric facility? What would it mean about what kind of people they are, if they did that to someone who didn't deserve it?

@ 12:49 a.m.

@ 12:55 a.m. It's my nurse, coughing loudly before she walked into my room.

@ 12:56 a.m.

I haven't said anything to anyone about it. I haven't confronted anyone about the hours of abuse that I have now been through at this Emergency Room. I haven't raised my voice to anyone. I have also done nothing at all that would confirm to even the most unreasonable person that I deserve the abuse, and yet the abuse continues, and they're smiling while they do it.

@ 1:02 a.m.

The nurse doesn't seem to think she should walk into or out of or past my room without coughing loudly. She smiles when she's talking to me, and has yet to say a rude word to me, but she obviously hates me as much as any stranger who harasses me every day. @ 1:57 a.m.

@ 2:00 a.m.

@ 2:05 a.m.

@ 2:07 a.m.

Louder @ 2:08 a.m.

@ 2:16 a.m.

@ 2:17 a.m, louder. This nurse HATES me, and I have never met her before in my life.

Conglomerate attacks

November 18, 2014

Although there are people at this Emergency Room who have harassed me, there are also people who haven't, and who are being professional and nice.

I feel like I'm never free to talk about things that happen that aren't bad, because the conglomerate attacks everyone who doesn't abuse me.

Someone just coughed,

The abuse that never stops

November 18, 2014

I'm at another Emergency Room for another psychological evaluation. One of three male security guards cleared his throat while I was walking past him. As soon as I got to the room where I'll wait to be evaluated, there was more loud, male coughing from the hallway that had the three guards standing around when I was brought to this room.

This has all happened in the past few minutes. I don't know how many hours I'll be here, getting harassed.

More coughing happened while I was writing the copyright notice.

___________

More coughing @ 9:32, by a male.

More coughing @ 9:32, by a female.

More coughing @ 9:42, by a male

More coughing @ 9:43, male and then female

I was just told that the officers are because of a patient who is in police custody (not me). If the security people are supposed to be creating security around another patient, why do any of them think they have time to harass me? Why does anyone in an Emergency Room think that he or she has time to harass anyone?

There were several coughs, mostly male and one female, while I wrote that paragraph.

@ 10:04 p.m.

Female coughing @ 10:12 p.m.

More female coughing @ 10:12 p.m. and 10:13 p.m.

Female coughing @ 10:14 p.m.

Forceful, male coughing @ 10:16 p.m.

Androgynous coughing @ 10:17 p.m.

It's incredible how viciously and joyously people vent spleen when they are given license and encouragement to do it.

Male coughing @ 10:24 p.m.

Loud, male, vomit-coughing @ 10:28 p.m.

Loud, female coughing @ 10:31 p.m.

Coughing @ 10:33 p.m.

Coughing @ 10:34 p.m.

Coughing @ 10:42 p.m.

Coughing @ 10:43 p.m.

Coughing @ 11:10 p.m.

Persistent, female coughing outside my room, for several minutes @ 11:17 p.m.

Horrible Harvard ad on a public bus

November 18, 2014

There's nothing open-minded or progressive about sexual assault or the censorship and repression of people who protest sexual assault.

He's continuing to cough.

November 18, 2014

I am a target everywhere.

The conglomerate has made sure that people think I deserve it.

Male harasser

November 18, 2014

A man keeps loudly coughing and sneezing from a room in this hallway.

It's never over.

Donna: a chronic, sexual harasser who works for the Department of Mental Health

November 18, 2014

She just walked out of someone else's office and coughed at me again.

___________________________________

I think she just coughed at another worker.

Also, a female in another office in this hallway just coughed loudly.

The level of viciousness to which the conglomerate has brought the world is incredible; incredibly disgusting and shameful.

Sexism and gender

November 18, 2014

Who would expect a heterosexual man to quietly accept the abuse that is inflicted on me every day?

I'm not gay, but after more than 4 years of abuse, I am often incapable of tolerating even being in the same room with a man.

Why isn't this being uniformly respected?

November 18, 2014

This is a picture of a statement that is on a wall at the Lindemann Center.

Why do I so often get treated as if I'm doing something wrong because I don't want to be abused?

Donna, Department of Mental Health employee

November 18, 2014

She just coughed at me again, loudly.

Donna is a serious bully.

Leonardo DiCaprio

November 18, 2014

I want to be sure that you don't misunderstand the last thing that I published about you at this blog.

People, unlike most written characters, don't just feel, think and do one thing at a time. The real characters of human beings are subject to ambivalence and change. Some people change a lot over time; some people never change at all.

It wasn't destiny that made me loathe you; it was your behavior.

http://m.hollywoodreporter.com/entry/view/id/831939

That's a picture of part of an article that's on the first part of the first page of Yahoo search results for Leonardo DiCaprio today. I also transferred the Web address of the article to this page.

This man seems to be planning to attack me for the rest of his life, for something that's his fault. It's not my fault that he made me hate him; he put a lot of effort into making me feel that way.

Matthew McConaughey

November 18, 2014

That's a picture of the first part of the first page of the Yahoo website.

I don't like you hitting on me, Mr. McConaughey. My guess is that your wife doesn't like you hitting on me, either. I don't even know how many times I have rejected you; who likes rejection, you?

Nobody likes this scenario, so why don't you just stop?

Epidemic of misogyny

November 18, 2014

A female in another room in this hallway has coughed loudly, twice in the past few minutes.

The conglomerate has created a disgusting world, and shows every sign of being proud of it.

Janet Marsden, who has the office directly in front of where I'm waiting in the hallway at the Department of Mental Health's Lindemann Center, just coughed a few times.

Abuse by a Department of Mental Health client

November 18, 2014

A male client just walked out of another office and coughed loudly while he walked to the end of the hallway to leave.

The conglomerate has populated the world with misogynists.

Abuse at the Department of Mental Health's Lindemann Center

November 18, 2014

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=kZd_UyNDX1A

The woman in the far office just coughed again.

I don't create the addresses for the videos that I publish at YouTube; YouTube does.

___________________________________

She just coughed again, then walked out of her office past me.

Another woman in the hallway near that office just coughed, also.

There's no question that the woman who has the far office is trying to make me freak out.

This is mental health?

___________________________________

The woman's name is Donna. She just walked past me again, went into her office, and coughed again.

She is trying to start a fight with me; even the way she walked back and forth in front of me showed that. She's a bully, and she's using her employment at the Department of Mental Health to protect herself while she picks on the clients.

Nobody should think that it doesn't happen all the time that people who work in mental health care emotionally abuse clients because they think it's fun to watch the clients freak out. Then, everything gets blamed on the client; the abusive worker says to anyone who sees the client getting upset "He/she got upset for no reason," and the client gets threatened or more than threatened with medication and/or physical restraints. It happens all the time.

She just coughed again. This woman is desperate to get me to show my anger; it's the most exciting opportunity to abuse someone that she's had all day.

___________________________________

She just coughed again.

___________________________________

She just walked out of her office and past me through the hallway, stopped to speak to someone in another office, then walked to the end of the hallway and coughed loudly again just before she left this part of the building.

If she treats me this way, how do you think she treats people who have no power at all? Obviously, nobody from the Department of Mental Health has ever reprimanded her for abuse of clients; I told her several coughs ago "You're going to be on the Internet in literally a few seconds, so why don't you knock it off?"

I can't take any more.

November 18, 2014

How many times do I have to say that?

Horrible Harvard

November 18, 2014

This is a picture of an ad at Broadway Station.

The Harvard Art Museum ads are now on the sides of buses, also; the conglomerate likes to respond to my objections by increasing the behaviors to which I have objected.

President Obama is a bigot about women and gay/bisexual people

November 18, 2014

Bigotry, being blind and unreasonable, is something that can exist within the same person who knows how to be reasonable and intelligent about other things.

These are pictures of the Yahoo search result for the White House official website, and of the "Photo of the Day" from the first page of that website.

"Your Brother's Keeper," unless he's gay or bisexual, right? Also, there's no question that the President couldn't care less about women's rights and that he doesn't consider women to be equal human beings to heterosexual men.

These are pictures from the "My Brother's Keeper" section of the website:

I have never stopped screaming "NO" about the SICK, SADISTIC, ILLEGAL videotaping of me. There doesn't seem to be anything that I can do to make that videotaping of me and other people around me to stop.

This is a picture of the first page of the section of the website that is called "Violence Prevention":

President Obama doesn't seem to think that voyeurism and other types of sexual assault are violence; he endorses them.

WCVB: "Dog Delivers 19 Puppies"

November 18, 2014

That's the story that WCVB just broadcast.

WCVB: What makes you so VICIOUS?

Monday, November 17, 2014

WCVB

November 17, 2014

I'm writing this page while homeless women cough at me.

The reason for the purple tie with white dots is? The person wearing it thinks I deserve to be gang raped for the rest of my life?

THANK YOU

November 17, 2014

Thank you, everyone who has tried to help me and who has been nice to me for the sake of being nice.

Not infrequently, your words and actions were the only kindnesses I had throughout entire days, weeks, months, these four years and counting of living hell.

Wet Paint

November 17, 2014

There are "Wet Paint" signs all over the walls at the Pine Street Inn. The walls aren't wet with paint.

My death

November 17, 2014

I left the crisis stabilization unit and was stalked by cars and trucks all the way to the shelter. Several homeless people at the shelter began harassing me as soon as I got here.

I think that there are a lot of people who are part of the conglomerate, or who support the conglomerate, who would like to see me be killed or kill myself. I think that they would think of my death as a lot of points on the conglomerate scoreboard.

A neverending onslaught

November 17, 2014

Many businesses have twisted around their products and the presentation of their products to attack me in particular, in addition to promoting the conglomerate's agenda.

Crystal Geyser label

November 17, 2014

These are pictures of the label from a bottle of Crystal Geyser water.

Chris Martin

November 17, 2014

I spent the first half of 2011 in Vermont. When I was at the homeless shelter in Vermont where I was first illegally videotaped with hidden cameras, as were all the other homeless guests at that shelter, I published several pages online that mentioned a Vermont journalist named Chris Martin. He wrote horrible articles for the newspaper that employed him, and he was obviously going to molest children as soon as he thought he could do that without being arrested.

The conglomerate took the name "Chris Martin" from what I wrote AGAINST child molestation and the conglomerate has used that name to promote child molestation for more than 3 years.

Cold

November 17, 2014

I was never before at the crisis stabilization unit where I spent the last few days. It was mostly quiet. A few of the staff and patients harassed me, and I was stalked by janitors more than once. Overall, though, it was not as bad as other facilities have been in terms of my being directly abused by other people in person.

There are concerns, however. The water in the showers is tepid, which means that taking a shower means being cold. When the maintenance man was called, he said that the water temperature was "within guidelines."

A visiting nurse practitioner said "We're tenants in this building. I can't do anything about the plumbing."

There was also cold air pouring into the patients' rooms through the vents.

I think that what has happened is that the landlord doesn't want to pay for heat and hot water. I also think that the landlord knows that mental patients who object to how they are treated have almost no chance of that treatment improving, and that staff who try to advocate for their patients have almost no chance of creating improvements, either.

All of the electrical outlets and switches in the building seem to have "LP2" or "RP2" written at the top of them, and "CKT" with a number after those letters at the bottom. Many of the "CKT"s had the number 41 written after them. The sockets and switches were labeled that way everywhere that I saw them in the building, including the bathrooms. I did not use a toilet, take a shower, or change my clothes once at that unit that I didn't turn off the lights first.

People's rights are being violated.

Melissa Joan Hart

November 17, 2014

I have never done anything to you! Leave me alone!

Kate Walsh

November 17, 2014

I have never done anything to you! Leave me alone!

Yahoo being disgusting

November 17, 2014

This is a picture of the first part of the first page of the Yahoo website, today.

Sunday, November 16, 2014

Did you hear what I said, Kindle?

November 16, 2014

It doesn't seem to me that you did.

Do you think that I don't have the right to say no?

Kay Jewelers and Kindle

November 16, 2014

and everyone else who hasn't left me alone about the SICK, SADISTIC, ILLEGAL videotaping of me:

LEAVE ME ALONE!

I am in yet another psychiatric crisis unit because of you! My life is nothing but a torment; LEAVE ME ALONE!

Saturday, November 15, 2014

Attacks

November 15, 2014

This message was sent to my phone:

This is the first part of the first page of Yahoo:

Jon Stewart

November 15, 2014

Please leave me alone; I HAVE NEVER DONE ANYTHING TO YOU. I have also never said a word before about your vicious and degrading behavior toward me.

If you were always too scared to ask people to take you seriously, that's your problem; please don't make it my problem.

Friday, November 14, 2014

Please, nobody ever hack my phone.

November 14, 2014

I don't think there's a conglomerate media business in the world that doesn't have my phone hacked and that isn't using interpretations of what it finds on my phone to serve the conglomerate's evil agenda.

I'm not art.

November 14, 2014

I'm a person who isn't free to live her life.

Wednesday, November 12, 2014

The silent victims and unexpected perpetrators

November 12, 2014

I think that the conglomerate has probably caused a lot of child molestation perpetrated by older people, including grandparents. It is the easiest type of sex crime for an older person to commit.

There is no excuse.

November 12, 2014

There is no excuse for the SICK, SADISTIC, ILLEGAL videos of me.

There never was an excuse, there's no excuse now, there never will be an excuse.

I have been sexually assaulted by a rape that will never end, even if I am never videotaped that way again.

Central Square Station

November 12, 2014

Official websites of Massachusetts General Hospital and Brigham and Women's Hospital

November 12, 2014

The Yogi Berra School of Social Work

November 12, 2014

I left the Massachusetts General Hospital Emergency Room last night, when I was told that they would help me get into a crisis stabilization unit but not a locked, hospital unit.

I went to the Brigham and Women's Emergency Room, where I was also told that they would help me get into a crisis stabilization unit, not a hospital.

While she was trying to get me to say things that would justify the decision not to help me be admitted to a hospital, a BEST (Boston Emergency Services Team) clinican asked me why I wanted to be in a hospital. I said that, unlike the way it would be in a crisis unit, I couldn't just run out of a hospital and kill myself. She said "But you've never run out of a crisis unit and killed yourself before."

They made me leave the Emergency Room this morning. They gave me an information sheet for the Arbour partial hospitalization program, a "Resource Guide to Emergency Services Programs" from 2013, and BEST's phone number.

Tuesday, November 11, 2014

Horrible, disgusting Harvard and Boston University

November 11, 2014

It probably hurts a lot to be hit by a train

for a few seconds.

Three people have already coughed at me since I got to this train station; one of them was a janitor with a mop.

LEAVE ME ALONE!

November 11, 2014

Downtown Crossing station

November 11, 2014

Vicious, horrible Harvard

November 11, 2014

"There are 12 people ahead of you that we're doing bed searches for."

November 11, 2014

That's what I was just told. When I got to the Emergency Room, I said that I thought I should be in a locked unit because I think about suicide all the time. I have said the same thing to everyone.

I won't get a locked unit; I have to take another crisis stabilization unit or be discharged.

IPOP

"IPOP." That's what it says on the white fixture.

The attacks continue

November 11, 2014

While I'm in the waiting room, waiting to talk to a psychiatrist, there's one attack on me and in human rights after another on television. "CBS Cares?" Cares about what, showing me naked to the world when I'm screaming "NO?!" Promoting the rape of children? That's what CBS calls caring?

The blood work room has trash from used needles on the trays, just the way it did last time.

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I wrote a few pages hours ago that I wasn't able to publish; I was offline in the Emergency Room.

Abuse at Massachusetts General Hospital

November 11, 2014

I just spoke with a nursing supervisor about how I was treated by the nurse. The supervisor acted like she cared about what I was saying, until the end of the conversation. She got up from where she was sitting next to me, and as soon as she turned to walk away, she coughed loudly.

It was loud enough for everyone in the waiting room to hear her. She was sending a signal to all employees that it's open season on me for harassment, as far as she's concerned.

_____

This happened a few hours ago.

Talk show host

November 11, 2014

Actual question to the guests:

"What was it like to tie the knot from 32,000 feet up?"

My answer:

"My life was not created for your amusement. You're a bad person."

This is so much more important than the Nigerian school girls who are being raped every day.

November 11, 2014

This is a picture that I took today of the first page of Yahoo.

Many of those girls are probably pregnant already, with the children of their rapists, who will be turned into female slaves like their mothers and murderous, male terrorists like their fathers.

Don't worry, haters!

November 11, 2014

It seems that President Putin's graciousness ended with the shawl; it's not as if he's going to stop attacking Ukraine or return Crimea to it, right? Your agenda of oppression is safe and sound.

Bill Nye

November 11, 2014

Are you sure that Marie Curie died of radiation sickness, not the misogyny of male scientists?

Hatred of women

November 11, 2014

Of course, President Putin is being attacked for being gracious toward a woman. What do you expect from the conglomerate?

Because they don't know

November 11, 2014

The years I spent in school, studying. The years I spent working, always at or within a few dollars of minimum wage.

All of that was difficult, and is much more the truth about me than my sad, past love life that these jackals never stop picking over and reciting to try to justify their treatment of me.

I am persecuted by people who have and have always had easy lives. They think nothing of making my life harder; they don't know what a hard life is, they all think that they have a comprehensive list of sins that I committed for which I was never punished, and they always want to hear about more of those.

They don't know what fucking vermin they all are.

"Beam us to Rapeworld, on the double!"

November 11, 2014

This is a picture that I took today of the first page of Yahoo.

Julianne Moore

November 11, 2014

I'm nobler than you think.

I'm not sure what your problem with me is; I know that I have never done anything to you.

Arbour Health System

November 11, 2014

That is a picture of part of the first page of the website for Arbour Health System.

Since moving to Boston in 2011, I have been a patient at the Arbour Fuller Hospital in South Attleboro, the Arbour Hospital in Jamaica Plain, and the Arbour in Brookline. I also was a patient at the women's partial hospitalization program at the Arbour in Brookline. Once, I was able to get through an entire week at the partial program, being harassed even by the female psychiatrist. The next time that I tried to do the partial, I left because I had to go to court for the final hearing about my apartment at Braintree Village, from which I was evicted. The third time that I tried to do the partial program was during this past summer. I was sickeningly harassed by several staff people, including the male manager of the program, before I walked out.

At every Arbour facility, I have had the same experience. There are patients and staff who harass me, and I am diagnosed as being delusional because I think that I'm being harassed. This past hospitalization was the most seriously dangerous one so far, with the medical director of the Brookline hospital petitioning the court to have me forced to take large quantities of antipsychotic medication. He did not succeed, because of the many hours that I spent while I was a patient at his hospital writing letters, making phone calls, speaking with people from my state-appointed attorney, the independent psychiatrist who evaluated me, other staff on the unit whether they were initially hostile to me or not, to the Department of Mental Health, to prevent him from forcing me to take medication that I don't need and that has serious side effects from weight gain up to 100 pounds to tardive dyskinesia.

At no time has the crushing pressure of the conglomerate's treatment of me been acknowledged by a doctor. I am always treated as if everything is my fault.

I don't know what medical staff are thinking when I'm at an Emergency Room and am asking to be admitted to a psychiatric hospital or a crisis stabilization unit. I don't know if they're thinking that I just don't like homeless shelters and that I want to stay somewhere cushier for a while. Psychiatric facilities are always nerve wracking for me. I know what they'll be like, and I always have to weigh what I know will happen when I get admitted against these criteria for being hospitalized:

Am I able to take care of myself?

Am I at imminent suicide risk?

Am I at risk of hitting someone?

When I asked to be admitted to a psychiatric hospital at the beginning of October, the answers to those questions were No, Yes and Yes.

I also know that when I leave a psychiatric facility, everything outside the facility will be the way it was before I was admitted to the facility. I'll be harassed. I'll be stalked. My life will be in danger from people who are waiting for the moment when they think they could rape and kill me and put the video of my being raped and killed online and be treated like heroes instead of being arrested. I'll be videotaped in toilet stalls and showers. I'll be homeless. The conglomerate will be promoting child molestation.

November 11, 2014

Mayor Martin J. Walsh and the next cycle of destruction of human rights

November 11, 2014

I am not a veteran.

I don't want there to be cameras in my next apartment. I don't know if I'll be able to get an apartment at all; my Section 8 voucher expires in December.

Broadway Station

November 11, 2014

There's no wet floor.

Bill Clinton

November 11, 2014

Are you trying to say that you think whipping and execution might be appropriate punishments for people who are accused of adultery, whether or not they're guilty?

Monday, November 10, 2014

South Station

November 10, 2014

The conglomerate didn't rename South Station to honor anyone; South Station was renamed to promote child molestation and the Duke lacrosse players who raped Crystal Mangum.

Talk about no good deed going unpunished. There's nothing that anyone could achieve that the conglomerate wouldn't pervert to condone rape.

And, according to the entire conglomerate media, I'm a climber, a con artist, and a w----.

November 10, 2014

A man yelled "You crazy whore" at me from his car window when I was walking to the Pine Street Inn after I left the Arbour Hospital in Brookline almost two weeks ago.

The Pine Street Inn

November 10, 2014

I'm being coughed at.

It's horrible.

Dr. Amanti at Boston Medical Center

November 10, 2014

When I was at the Emergency Room at Boston Medical Center weeks ago, waiting to be interviewed by a psychiatric clinician, several Boston Medical Center staff people harassed me. The first was a young woman who seemed to be a medical assistant. She coughed at me several times. I told her to stop coughing at me. A janitor found things to do around me; I told him to leave me alone.

My objections to being abused culminated in someone named Dr. Amanti standing over me, telling me that everyone around me was just doing his or her job, that they couldn't help coughing, and that I had to stop being disruptive by objecting to their behavior. I think he would have continued to admonish me if I hadn't gotten his name from his name tag and told him that I was going to write about him online. He then retreated to the desk, where he laughed and asked a resident doctor "What's her diagnosis?" He did that, of course, to try to get a psychiatric diagnosis as an answer so that he could discredit me in front of everyone and continue to allow me to be psychologically abused in the Emergency Room.

Dr. Amanti left the room for a while. While he was gone, another male doctor who had already coughed at me several times stood about 10 feet away from me, coughing deafeningly during the entire time that the spouse or friend of a patient in the ER was trying to talk to him about that patient.

I finally said to that doctor "You are supposed to be listening to the person next to you who is trying to talk to you about your patient, not standing there coughing at me."

Soon after this, Dr. Amanti was standing over me again. He finally went away, but the abuse didn't stop.

The abuse never stops. Being treated with any courtesy at all anywhere is now something that makes a situation memorable for me.

There was another female patient in the ER that night whom staff were ridiculing also, right in front of her as if she were deaf or too stupid to understand what they were saying and how they were saying it. She got upset and left; they laughed about that, also.

The transitional program at the Pine Street Inn

November 10, 2014

I was forced to leave it last year; I was told that I had an obsession with Wet Floor signs and coughing.

The transitional program means a permanent bed and not having to do the Emergency bed lottery any more. It also allows its guests to stay indoors during the day if they need to. You get a bureau next to your bed, with a lock, a shelf in the kitchen cabinet and a place for your own food. It is much less stressful than the Emergency beds and the lobby.

You're allowed to apply again to be in the transitional program after a while; you then have to prove that you have solved the problems that made you leave the program before.

How can I solve the problem of being bullied and lied about? I'm not the one with the problem; I am the target of the people who have the problem.

Months ago, I applied to the program again. I can see that the program is interviewing and accepting other applicants; their names are on letters that are on the bulletin board behind the front desk.

I'm sure that the director of the program isn't going to address one of those letters to me.

I am persecuted everywhere and all the time. I can't stop it, and the people who are doing it don't seem to want to stop it.

Abuse and denial at the Pine Street Inn

November 10, 2014

A homeless woman decided to sit at the table where I was already sitting. She then proceeded to cough loudly every few minutes. After a few rounds of her coughing, I said "I won't put up with that."

She kept doing it. I told Maryse, a Pine Street Inn employee, what was happening. Maryse said "She can't help coughing." I said "I'm not getting into a discussion of what the coughing means; you don't have to do anything about her now. I'm just telling you that she's being a jerk."

Maryse then quite obviously turned her back on me in front of a room of homeless women, signaling to them that I am a target who won't be helped.

Denise at the Pine Street Inn

November 10, 2014

She is a staffperson who coughed at me, right after she assigned me bed number B9.

How many more times is YouTube going to destroy my documentation of my protests of what's happening to me?

November 10, 2014

I'll be incorrectly known forever as a willing porn participant.

Also, stalkers and harassers will know that documentation of their crimes toward me will be erased from the Internet, while people can create as many blogs as they like to torment me and destroy my reputation.

Harvard: Bastion of white, male power

November 10, 2014

This is a Harvard ad on a public train.

It's tough to be heterosexual in a conglomerate world.

November 10, 2014

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=dnon4LKsvek

I don't create the addresses for the videos that I publish at my YouTube blog; YouTube does.

Across the street from On The Rise

November 10, 2014

Who's paying for it and for the police officer? There's usually a police officer around when things are being done to streets; who pays for it all?

Another hole in the road, while the "CL" graffiti is ignored.

"Call 800-354-9927 if you suspect fraud."

November 10, 2014

I am not collecting unemployment benefits. I started the process of trying to find out if I was eligible for them, but the first person I talked to over the phone didn't seem to know what she was doing and kept asking me the same question over and over again, and the second person that I spoke to was so rude to me that I hung up the phone. He was miserable to me; everything he said was in a rude and condescending tone of voice and he interrupted every sentence I tried to speak. When he asked me why I was fired, I told him that I was sexually harassed and that my objections to being harassed were met with lies and then I was fired. He immediately said "What was the EMPLOYER'S reason for firing you," and basically told me that the government isn't interested in hearing what someone who was fired has to say about why the firing happened.

I AM PERSECUTED EVERYWHERE AND ALL THE TIME! I DON'T WANT TO LIVE LIKE THIS!