Thursday, July 31, 2014

I got a bed.

July 31, 2014

My name was called a few minutes ago.

This war is making everyone crazy or tired or both.

Copyright L. Kochman, July 31, 2014 @ 8:48 p.m.

A Pine Street Inn employee just walked past me and said "I smell cheese."

Copyright L. Kochman, July 31, 2014 @ 5:47 p.m.

I wasn't able to publish this page when that incident happened.

Copyright L. Kochman, July 31, 2014 @ 6:15 p.m.

I didn't get a bed at the Pine Street Inn tonight, nor did I get added to the waiting list.

July 31, 2014

If I don't end up sleeping on a mat on the floor in the lobby tonight, I'll be surprised.

People have seen mice in the lobby at night; I hope they don't scamper on me while I'm trying to sleep.

In the morning, everyone who had to sleep in the lobby last night will be awakened between 4:15 and 4:30 a.m.  Last night, the time for when the lobby closes was permanently changed from 10:00 p.m. to 9:00 p.m., so the people who have to sleep in the lobby won't be forced
to stay awake until 10:00 p.m., to get 6 hours of sleep at the most.  That's good; however, 9:00 p.m. is an awfully early bedtime for grown women who also have to be at the Pine Street Inn by 3:00 p.m. every  afternoon to do the bed lottery.

I'm scheduled to work tomorrow, and have to be at the Labor Ready in Quincy by 6:15 a.m.  I don't know if I'll stumble out to the garden at 4:30 to try to get another half-hour of sleep on the wire or concrete benches before going to work.  I have done that in the past when I had to sleep in the lobby, taking care not to look like rat food for the several rats that either live in or frequent the garden, which I have seen.

Copyright L. Kochman, July 31, 2014 @ 4:32 p.m.

If the Metropolitan Boston Housing Partnership continues to insist, entirely spuriously, that I tried to conceal getting Social Security benefits while I was living at Braintree Village, MBHP will also insist that the repayment that I owe them is about $2000.

July 31, 2014

That's my calculation of the numbers, based on my having gotten about $800 a month after I started getting benefits, until I started working for Labor Ready in February, 2014, when I got evicted from Braintree Village.  After I had worked a few days for Labor Ready, the supplement was discontinued and I started getting $702 every month.

They have scheduled a meeting for me for August 6th "to discuss and sign" the repayment agreement.  I'll have that one meeting to "discuss" the situation, during which I'll be browbeaten and condescended to, in addition to being sexually harassed with the coughing and other gestures by anyone who wants to do it.  Since I will be at that meeting because of my supposedly dishonest behavior, I'll be in even more danger than usual of being threatened with security dragging me from the building if I object to being sexually harassed or if I ask what the person interviewing me considers to be too many questions before I sign what they're telling me to sign.  That was what happened when I was trying to ask questions about the lease for Braintree Village last year; my reasonable questions got the wrong answers, and when I asked to speak with someone who knew the right answers, I was screamed at, told that I had been disrespectful to everyone in the office, and essentially told to shut up and sign or security would be called and I would be thrown out of the building.

If I don't go to the meeting which they have scheduled for me, or if I don't agree that I owe them thousands of dollars and sign their agreement to pay them, they'll take the voucher from me.  If I agree, inaccurately, that I concealed my monetary status from them, and I agree to pay them, it will be part of my permanent record with them that I was dishonest, and that record will be sent to the housing authority of any state to which I try to move, and it will be part of what those next housing authorities consider when deciding whether or not to allow me to pay for apartments with the voucher in their states.

Add to that my eviction from Braintree Village and my many extension requests while trying to find decent housing, and there's practically a criminal record for me that my ever agreeing even to apply for this voucher created for me from the beginning.

If I lose the voucher, I'll be at the Pine Street Inn for a lot longer than I was thinking I would be before I got the letter from James Birney, Program Representative at the Metropolitan Boston Housing Partnership, this afternoon.  That is, I'll be at the Pine Street Inn until they think of a way to bar me in retaliation for my public documentation of the sexual harassment and other problems at this and all of the shelters.  Since I was already barred from almost every shelter in the Boston area for the same reason before I got the apartment at Braintree Village in 2013, my being barred from the Pine Street Inn will probably result in my using whatever money I have when that happens to buy a bus ticket to another state.

Then I'll be living in homeless shelters in the state where the bus deposits me.  Since I won't have a housing voucher or the chance to get one, I'll hopefully be able to get work.  Hopefully, the harassment of me at work will only be the sickening coughing and other hateful and lewd gestures, and won't also include being treated like I'm colossally stupid, being grabbed, and then being called a liar when I report being verbally abused and physically invaded.

Which number, from the general numbers listed in the letter from MBHP,  do you think I should call to try to talk to the program representative that I had when I was living at Braintree Village?  These are the numbers:

(617) 859-0400

(800) 272-0990

Copyright L. Kochman, July 31, 2014 @ 5:02 p.m.

The Pine Street Inn employee who was working at the front door when I got to the shelter this afternoon harassed me with coughing.

Copyright L. Kochman, July 31, 2014 @ 3:45 p.m.

I am being harassed by several of the employees at On The Rise.

July 31, 2014

It is disgusting that so many of the women who work at this place, which is supposed to help and support women, are totally ignorant about what sexual harassment is and are unaware that their retaliatory behavior toward me for my objections to sexual harassment and other crimes perpetrated by this establishment is also violating and illegal.

Copyright L. Kochman, July 31, 2014 @ 10:50 a.m.

Sexual harassment at the Pine Street Inn, Quincy Auto Auction

July 31, 2014

For the past half hour, a homeless woman at the Pine Street Inn has been coughing at me.  She has bullied me this way frequently over the past few weeks, even at night when people are supposed to be sleeping.

I don't feel that I can talk to staff about her this morning, because I have already talked to a staff person about another homeless woman who has started bullying me with coughing harassment over the past few days.  Also, when I went to the office this morning to speak with my advocate about that homeless guest, there was another staff person in the office who was wearing a white, v-necked shirt, who waved at me to get my attention, smiled and said "Hi," and then went into a fit of loud, exaggerated coughing.

That's bad.  It's also bad that, while I was writing the last sentence, my advocate walked out of the kitchen and past me to the office, saying several times "Sticky floor."

What I was going to say when I started the last paragraph was "That's bad.  It's also bad that the staff person wearing the white, v-necked shirt is friends with a woman who works at the Quincy Auto Auction.  The woman at the Quincy Auto Auction is someone who has coughed at me and who also offered no support at all when I tried to talk to her about the ongoing abuses of me at that auction, like the temporary license plate, #41v, that is put on every post-sale car that gets inspected in the building where the auction happens, where everyone who walks or drives past the building sees it during the hours that the auction takes place.

Copyright L. Kochman, July 31, 2014 @ 9:04 a.m.

Tuesday, July 29, 2014

I access the services of shelters because I am homeless and need those services, not because I condone their past and present abuses of and negligence toward me and other homeless people.

July 29, 2014

There is a notice on the refrigerator door at On The Rise that says:

"Go to the MOVIES!

On Wednesday, July 30th, On The Rise will take 8 Safe Haven women to the movies!"

Copyright L. Kochman, July 29, 2014 @ 10:05 a.m.

I did get a bed at the shelter last night, late.

Copyright L. Kochman, July 29, 2014 @ 6:59 a.m./ edited @ 7:02 a.m.

Near the beginning of this blog, there's a page discussing that I didn't want to keep reprinting pages about code or other issues for this blog.

July 29, 2014

I had originally meant for this blog to be a place where I could write about what I felt like writing about, rather than what I felt I had to write about, and I didn't want to put myself through the tedium of reprinting pages every day or every few days.  A few months ago, this blog ended up on the first page of Google search results for my name; I didn't try to make that happen.  When it did happen, I realized after a while that I could quickly publish something at this blog, particularly something that had to do with my feelings about a situation that had to do with me personally, and it might help to dispel public opinion about me which is ceaselessly distorted by the conglomerate's hateful propaganda.

The principles that I have stated at my other blogs also apply at this blog.

Copyright L. Kochman, July 29, 2014 @ 6:22 a.m.

Monday, July 28, 2014

Sleep deprivation

July 28, 2014

Frequently over the past few weeks, when I publicly object to being sexually harassed by staff at the Pine Street Inn, I don't get a bed the next night through the supposedly random lottery.

When I don't get a bed, I have to sleep in the lobby.  Guests who sleep in the lobby are not able to sleep until 10:00 p.m., when the lobby closes, and they have to get up at 4:15 a.m. the next morning.  Guests who get beds can sleep as soon after 6:00 p.m. as they are able to take the obligatory shower and get ready to sleep in their beds.  They also don't have to get up until 6:00 a.m. the next morning.

I think that it's good that the guests who get beds have to take showers before they are even allowed to go into the bed areas of the dorm.  I think that it's good that people who don't get beds are able to take showers if they want to take them.

If there are hidden and illegal video cameras in the bathrooms and showers of the Pine Street Inn and other shelters, I think that's a horrible violation of every homeless person and it is a terrible crime.

Copyright L. Kochman, July 28, 2014 @ 9:14 p.m.

The conglomerate should stop encouraging people to urinate in the shower.

Copyright L. Kochman, July 28, 2014 @ 9:02 p.m.

Why doesn't everyone who thinks that what's happening is funny watch the movie "The Accused?"

July 28, 2014

Nobody EVER "asks for it."

Copyright L. Kochman, July 28, 2014 @ 6:47 a.m.

"New Hilton Hotel Technology"; WCVB just had a story with that as its caption! They're all a bunch of rapists; they're RAPISTS!

July 28, 2014

I never choose the channel at the homeless shelter television.


What happened to Paris Hilton was horrible; even though she had agreed to be videotaped, she had never meant for the tape to be public.





Copyright L. Kochman, July 28, 2014 @ 6:30 a.m.

Sunday, July 27, 2014

If you do a search of the term "gang rape pornography," what you get is one website after another proudly advertising videos of women being gang raped.

July 27, 2014

Precisely, the first Google search result for that search term says:

"Gang Rape Videos--Brutal gangbang porn!

Weeping chicks get their holes penetrated by countless men in a row or even at once..."

It was a couple of years ago, when I started to look for the SICK, SADISTIC, ILLEGAL videos of me online, when I first realized how much pornography was on the Internet.  Since I had never seen more than a few seconds of pornography in my life before then, I was surprised.

It could be that particularly people who are older than I am, which describes a lot of people in government and other powerful situations, don't realize that the world is indeed turning criminal against women and all others who are considered appropriate targets of sexual violence.

What's happening to me is happening because women's rights are being destroyed.  Those of generations preceding my generation might not yet have realized that I really have done nothing at all to bring what is happening to me upon myself.

I never found the SICK, SADISTIC, ILLEGAL videos of me, and stopped looking for them for a long time, feeling that the viewing of them would be traumatic for me and that I didn't need to hasten the moment when I would see them.  If I haven't found them, it's probably because I don't know exactly where or how to look for them.  I'm sure it won't be long before they are easy for anyone to find, because the conglomerate is a BUNCH OF HATEFUL, SELF-CENTERED, SADISTIC RAPISTS!

Copyright L. Kochman, July 27, 2014 @ 7:38 p.m.

This is oppression.

July 27, 2014

I was coughed at every time that I was at the Pine Street Inn today; I was coughed at while I wrote this page.

Even though the gate to the kitchen was already closed when I sat next to it, someone opened it and started mopping the floor after I sat here.

Almost without exception, I am forced to tolerate being harassed everywhere that it happens; at shelters, at work, on public transportation, on the street, even by salespeople when I am the customer.

Although several people at the Adesa auction in Framingham professed, this past Friday, to being concerned about my being treated appropriately while I was working there, I was harassed by employees after all of those conversations, and even after I had spoken to a supervisor about that harassing behavior and he had spoken to those employees.

The Labor Ready office in Quincy also seems to have sent out at least one subsequent work alert text to all employees that references the SICK, SADISTIC, ILLEGAL videos of me.

I now expect that several dealers that go to the auctions will not only cough and sneeze and rub their noses at me, will not only wear t-shirts promoting sexual harassment, child molestation and the SICK, SADISTIC, ILLEGAL videos of me, they will also stand directly in front of a car that I drive into the garage and they will run their hands over their chests or otherwise mimic the SICK, SADISTIC, ILLEGAL videos of me.  The man who did that this past Friday was wearing a shirt that said "VIX."  I guess there's no law that they're worried about violating when they give themselves breast exams in public.

While I was writing the last sentence, I heard a newscaster on TV emphasizing the word "sticky" in the phrase "sticky weekend."  They've done that a lot lately.

Somehow, all blame for what's happening to me continues to be placed on me instead of on the people who deserve it, and nobody who has caused it seems to think it should stop.

Last week, when I was at the Quincy Auto Auction, they used the "41v" temporary license plate on the post-sale cars again.

I am not able to live my life.  The conglomerate is doing everything it can think of to make sure that I can't live my life.

I started this blog post with the address to a page that discusses sexual harassment.  I have said before that I don't choose articles or excerpts for code purposes.

There's no excuse for what's happening to me.  There's nothing in my past or present that justifies it; there is nothing that a person could ever do that could justify treating that person the way I am being treated.

Copyright L. Kochman, July 27, 2014 @ 6:47 p.m.

Hateful, exaggerated coughing by the Pine Street Inn employee supervising the Ice Cream Social that happened today.

July 27, 2014

I was sexually harassed by coughing and other gestures like it last night when I was trying to sleep.

I was sexually harassed that way starting at 4:30 this morning.

There's no hour at this shelter when I am not harassed by someone, and usually by several people.

Whatever the conglomerate and its adherents are allergic to, it's not coarse, intrusive, ignorant behavior inflicted upon nonprovoking targets; the conglomerate loves behaving that way toward its targets, whom it never ceases to portray as villains deserving of its sickening abuse.

Copyright L. Kochman, July 27, 2014 @ 2:00 p.m.

Saturday, July 26, 2014

Someone please help the incredibly sick woman near me.

July 26, 2014

No loving G-d created whatever is wrong with her.

Copyright L. Kochman, July 26, 2014 @ 9:12 p.m.

I was sickeningly harassed at the Adesa auto auction in Framingham this past Friday.

July 26, 2014

Someone even followed me after the auction was over, in a car that had a temporary license plate that said "681 AS."

There is nowhere that I have worked since the conglomerate started to persecute me in 2010 that I haven't been sickeningly harassed during every hour that I have worked.

My life is a hell.

Copyright L. Kochman, July 26, 2014 @ 7:56 p.m.

I want everyone who is hacking my phone to STOP DOING THAT!

July 26, 2014

I don't want my privacy invaded, NOT FOR ANY REASON!

I'M not hacking anyone's phone; why are there people who think they have the right to hack my phone?!

I won't take the time with this page to yet again discuss all of the ways in which my privacy is being invaded; there are too many of them, and I don't do any of those things to other people, have no desire to do them, and wouldn't do them even if I had the money and technological means to do them.

Does it ever occur to the people who are constantly interpreting what they think are signals I'm sending through my hacked phone that I CAN'T stop you from hacking my phone?  I would stop you if I could; I CAN'T!  Of course there are times when my frustration about not being able to stop your invasions of my privacy gets to me; it would get to anyone.


Copyright L. Kochman, July 26, 2014 @ 7:51 p.m.

I am horribly harassed every day and night.

July 26, 2014

The harassment and the stalking happen all day.  I'm sure that there are also stalking vehicles circling whatever building I am in, all night.

Last night, a woman in one of the bunks next to my bunk decided that she was going to harass me with coughing at 2:00 a.m.  This is not unusual; many other homeless women have done the same thing, whether their beds are near mine or whether they are on the other side of the dorm and want to see if they can get a reaction from me.

There is no reasoning with people who are programmed by propaganda and given encouragement to mercilessly bully someone.

I have heard that only the abuser can decide to stop abusing his or her victim.  Since I am not and never will be powerful enough to make the conglomerate stop being abusive, what I contemplate every morning, every night, and most of the rest of the time, is that the rest of my life will continue to be an endless torment with the conglomerate trying to thwart every positive, productive thing that I try to do, forever.

Copyright L. Kochman, July 26, 2014 @ 3:08 p.m.

Friday, July 25, 2014

A police car and at least 3 construction vehicles had a road block, forcing the car I'm in to take a detour to work.

July 25, 2014

I am dependent on other Labor Ready employees who have cars to be able to do the car auction in Framingham.

Nobody should be trying to intimidate people from helping me get to work.

The conglomerate has NOT ONE MORE WORD to say about my dependency on financial assistance from the government.  The conglomerate has done everything it could do to destroy all of my work opportunities.

Copyright L. Kochman, July 25, 2014 @ 6:45 a.m.

Thursday, July 24, 2014

I changed my clothes a few times this morning in a stall in the bathroom at the Pine Street Inn because I wasn't sure what the weather would be like.

Tonight, a television show had a scene in which a mentally disturbed, blonde woman changes her clothes several times while muttering "Don't expose yourself," before she leaves where she lives and grossly accosts a man and a woman who are walking together.

Are there cameras in the bathrooms at the Pine Street Inn?  If so, the conglomerate trying to say that I want to be videotaped and that's why I continue to do the things that people do in restrooms and for which they are supposed to have privacy is like saying that someone getting raped is proof that the person wanted to be raped.

Copyright L. Kochman, July 24, 2014 @ 9:25 p.m.

The mental health care system rarely blames itself for screwing people up or for screwing up people's lives.

July 23, 2014

It's easy for that system to blame its failures on its clients, and it does, and so does most of the rest of the world.

Copyright L. Kochman, July 24, 2014 @ 9:15 p.m./copyright notice edited

There's an ad for a tablet called the "X360," saying "Somewhere out there is a massive wave; the X360 makes it easy to find."

July 23, 2014

The conglomerate is a bunch of RAPISTS!

While I was writing this page, there was an ad on TV for a show called "How To Get Away With Murder."  The ad describes the show as "sexy."

Copyright L. Kochman, July 24, 2014 @ 9:14 p.m./copyright notice edited

"Bachelor in Paradise"; a new television show, because the conglomerate never gets tired of being HATEFUL!

Copyright L. Kochman, July 24, 2014 @ 9:12 p.m./copyright notice edited

JC Penney's ads are DISGUSTING!

Copyright L. Kochman, July 24, 2014 @ 9:13 p.m.

It's incredible how many people are horrible to me every day, from total strangers to people I have known for a while and to whom I have never been anything but nice.

July 23, 2014

I am a target for anyone who feels like being horrible to someone.

Copyright L. Kochman, July 23, 2014 @ 5:17 p.m.

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Why couldn't the American continents eventually be like Europe?

July 23, 2014

Throughout much of Europe, standards of living are similar among many countries, and people frequently travel from one country to the next without abandoning the citizenships of where they were born.

One of the things that will probably have to happen to achieve that goal is that American and other corporations will have to stop outsourcing their slave-owner-like practices to everywhere outside their countries of origin where they know they'll get away with it.

Sarcasm Alert

I'm sure that all the corporations that engage in those practices will immediately agree to stop those practices, as soon as they read this page.  It won't be a problem; they'll say "That sounds cost-effective.  We'd rather be fair and decent than make obscene amounts of money at the cost of human life."  Everyone in government will say that, also.  Improvements will begin around the world by the end of this week.

End of Sarcasm Alert

Copyright L. Kochman, July 24, 2014 @ 9:11 p.m.

I don't support the idea of a lot of immigrant children being indefinitely housed in the United States, or of a lot of them getting U.S. citizenship.

July 23, 2014

While they are in the United States, they should be housed and treated decently.

What I wrote about this issue at my WordPress blog, "endtherapeofchildren," was that the countries from which they fled should be made to take responsibility for improving the conditions in those countries.  There's no reason that the United States can't help and work with those countries to improve those conditions; the United States should do that.

There is no reason that the United States should be considered to be the place where everyone who wasn't born here should want to live.  There is no reason that the standard of living in places that don't have what the United States has shouldn't or can't be improved.

I support human rights; everyone has those, even when they aren't acknowledged.  To be honest, the term "immigrants' rights" sets my teeth on edge.  That could be because I have lived much like a refugee in the United States, the place of my birth, since 2010.  It could also be because of all of the people who are obviously not from the United States who have harassed and stalked me during that time; many of the janitors at the MBTA and employees of places throughout the Boston area
meet that description.  They are free to use their employers' time and resources to harass and stalk me, while finding and keeping work is fraught with abuse and other difficulties for me.

I think that people who want to be U.S. citizens should have reasons that are more important than "I feel like it," or "I can make a lot more money at a low-level job in the United States than I can where I was born, and that's the height of my ambition (and ability)."

Employers in the United States also shouldn't be allowed to hire immigrants just because they'd rather hire people whom they know will take more abuse than people born in the United States would take.

Copyright L. Kochman, July 24, 2014 @ 9:09 p.m.

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

"Ice Cream Social"

"WHEN:  Sunday July 27, 1:00 p.m.

WHERE:  Women's Inn Dining Room

Join us for some delicious complimentary ice cream sundaes!"

July 22, 2014

That is a notice that was put on the bulletin board at the Pine Street Inn after I left this morning and before I got there this afternoon for the bed lottery.

When my name was called during the bed lottery, I was given bed #9.

Homelessness is a crisis situation for everyone who is homeless, yet this is how some of the staff at the Pine Street Inn have decided to spend their paid time and the Pine Street Inn's resources.

Copyright L. Kochman, July 22, 2014 @ 7:41 p.m.

I can't live.

July 22, 2014

This is a partial list of things that I can't do without the conglomerate screaming that I'm a slut and a relationship-destroyer.


-listen to music

-purchase anything

-get a book from the library

-read Internet articles

-deviate from a blank facial expression

Copyright L. Kochman, July 22, 2014 @ 10:58 a.m./edited @ 11:02 a.m./edited @ 1:18 p.m.

Breaking News!

July 22, 2014

May 3, 2014:  Joe Manganiello meets Sofia Vergara at the White House Correspondents Dinner, probably while everyone there is making and laughing at jokes about what a slut they have told the world that I am.

May 23, 2014:  Ms. Vergara publicly announces that she and her then-fiancĂ© will be spending time apart.

June 30, 2014:  People Magazine names Mr. Manganiello Hottest Bachelor!  I know that's the People Magazine Standard of Notation, to capitalize words such as "Hottest" and "Bachelor" and add exclamation points.  With the article about the Hottest Bachelor! People publishes at least a paragraph of Mr. Manganiello talking about his Celebrity Crush!  Sofia Vergara!  People Magazine seems to regularly publish quotes from interviewees talking about their Celebrity Crushes!  People Magazine doesn't seem to think that publishing those types of quotes is incongruous with calling me a slut.  The conglomerate never seems to think that anything it does is incongruous with calling me a slut.

By the first week in July, Mr. Manganiello and Ms. Vergara are publicly dating.  They are the conglomerate's Hottest! Couple!

Ms. Vergara was a spokesperson for Comcast XFINITY starting in the summer of 2011, which was probably when the first SICK, SADISTIC, ILLEGAL videos filmed of me in the bathroom of a homeless shelter in Vermont had been circulating Hollywood and the rest of the conglomerate for a while.  I left the Vermont State Hospital and went to stay at that homeless shelter at the end of March, 2011.

Ms. Vergara's Facebook has pictures of her New!  Jewelry!  Collection!  For!  Kay!  Jewelers!  One of the pictures shows a necklace with a silver triangle on top of a gold circle.

Dates and uninterpreted events for this page were informed by People Magazine, the Huffington Post, Ms. Vergara's Facebook, and other Internet sources that are available to the general public.

Of course, the title of this page is ironic. Am I explaining too much now?  Does the conglomerate feel that I have insulted its intelligence?

Copyright, with noted exceptions, L. Kochman, July 22, 2014 @ 10:45 a.m.

The traffic reporter on the news this morning is wearing a tight, purple v-necked dress that leaves nothing to the imagination about the shape of her body.

July 22, 2014

She is not the only woman at WCVB who wears clothing that I would consider more appropriate for evening parties than for reporting the traffic, weather or other news.

It's interesting how often those women dress that way, and how often almost every woman who is part of the conglomerate dresses that way and in ways that are even more revealing, while they also seem to think that I deserve what's happening to me; do they think that they deserve to be sexually harassed, stalked, sexually assaulted?  They don't seem to be worried that anyone will think that they're "asking for it."

Copyright L. Kochman, July 22, 2014 @ 6:43 a.m.

This morning, when a worker at the Pine Street Inn was getting up the women who slept in the section where I was last night, she walked over to me, tapped me in the shoulder, told me "It's time to get up," and then coughed when she was walking away.

July 22, 2014

That was how my day started, with someone who is paid to contribute to a safe environment for women making a nonverbal gesture toward me that is meant to indicate "You're a dirty slut and a bad person.  Your vagina smells.  You deserve disrespect and abuse at all times, even first thing in the morning, at 6:00 a.m., before you have even gotten out of bed to deal with the rest of your day which will be full of other people treating you this way."

July 22, 2014 @ 6:29 a.m.

Sunday, July 20, 2014

No matter how angry I get, I never advocate for people to be harmed for no reason.

July 20, 2014

The conglomerate never stops shrieking that I deserve whatever it wants to inflict on me, and it never stops excusing and denying its abusive behavior toward me and its other targets.

Nobody should underestimate my hatred of the conglomerate's agenda, or overestimate any positive attachment that I ever had to anyone who participated in promoting that agenda.  For a long time, I hoped that I could dissuade people who promoted that agenda from continuing their destructive behavior.  I did that to the detriment of my health, reputation and living situation.  I tried to encourage the side of those people that was not corrupted; mostly what happened was that they felt entitled to disrespect me and exploit me, and I ended up feeling perpetually angry, bitter, suspicious and totally incapable of forgiving.

Of course, forgiveness which precedes a sincere apology from the offender and the offender's real change of behavior is naive.  I don't think that the hateful, vicious conglomerate chorus thinks of me as being naive; I think it chooses to think of me as too sexual for a woman and greedy for money.  If it were to stop thinking of me that way, the truth would lead the people who would rather think of me that way to have to confront their rabid abuse of me.

Even an evil person could not deserve the sickening abuse that the conglomerate inflicts on me and on the other human beings whom it consistently dehumanizes while it denies its rapacious and murderous behavior.

Dealing with the conglomerate's obdurate stupidity, its obsessive nitpicking, its destructive and pathetic worship of clique-building, its misinterpretations, distortions and flat-out lies; all of that is tiring and infuriating and drives me toward a type of misanthropy that I have never felt before.

I always thought my feelings about the conglomerate's behavior were neatly summed up with words such as "raging a-holes" and "total morons," and nobody is more surprised than I at the conglomerate's apparent need for years of more explicit explanations.

Copyright L. Kochman, July 20, 2014 @ 8:31 p.m./edited @ 8:34 p.m.

Saturday, July 19, 2014

If there are people who are hacking my phone, THEY HAVE TO STOP DOING THAT!


The conglomerate has spent years telling the world to rape and even murder children, while calling criminal everyone who protests that abuse.

July 19, 2014

The conglomerate has spent millions of dollars advertising its agenda and threatening people who oppose it.

It's not surprising that the conglomerate media, which has done and continues to do everything it can think of to dehumanize children so that people think of them as sex objects whose lives are expendable, is doing almost nothing to support the idea of coordinating the care and safety of children who need help.

If the conglomerate were trying to think of ways to turn the United States into the most despicable country in the world, it couldn't be more effective.

Copyright L. Kochman, July 19, 2014 @ 6:43 p.m.

When children need help, you help them.

Copyright L. Kochman, July 19, 2014 @ 6:08 p.m.

The conglomerate has caused a lot of people to do things that they wouldn't have otherwise done; the conglomerate has brought out the worst in everyone.

Copyright L. Kochman, July 19, 2014 @ 7:58 a.m.

My "advocate" at the Pine Street Inn

July 19, 2014

I am polite to her.  I am respectful.

She rubs her nose at me.  She coughs at me.  She makes almost every transaction more difficult than it has to be.  She takes the side of the other person in every situation in which there is conflict, even though the only conflict that occurs around me at the Pine Street Inn happens because I am sexually harassed and bullied.

She makes no attempt to hide her dislike of me, even though I have done nothing to deserve it, have never tried to provoke her, and did not choose to be her client.

Copyright L. Kochman, July 19, 2014 @ 7:01 a.m./title edited @ 7:05 a.m.

Thursday, July 17, 2014


July 17, 2014

I don't care who you are or what you think your reasons are!

I don't want my privacy invaded, NOT FOR ANY REASON!

Copyright L. Kochman, July 17, 2014 @ 9:35 p.m.

Why does the conglomerate think that it has the right to invade my privacy, to viciously and mercilessly attack me, and to attempt to stigmatize me to the world?

July 17, 2014

There seems to be no end to it; the slurs by the media, and everything else.

Today, they are all obviously screaming about me; I never thought adults could or would be this nasty and hateful, for this long.

Today is my birthday.  I am 40.  For more than 4 years, I have lived this hell.

Copyright L. Kochman, July 17, 2014 @ 7:16 p.m.

Wednesday, July 16, 2014

"Santa Claus's mashed potato beard," through which its wearer could say "Ho Ho Ho."

July 16, 2014

That was suggested by a guest of the Ellen Degeneres Show today.

Years ago, Ms. Degeneres did ads for a fruit product.  They were funny ads, insulting and dangerous to neither adults nor children.

That was how I heard of Ellen Degeneres.

Is this the inexorable Hollywood story? From funny, harmless ads about fruit to lewd, catty tuber perversions?

Copyright L. Kochman, July 16, 2014 @ 5:40 p.m.

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

I am never able to believe the time, money and effort that the conglomerate wastes on its horrific agenda; why create and promote more evils, when there are already so many evils in the world that need to be addressed?

July 15, 2014

What happened to the Congressional hearings about organ harvesting and the persecution of Falun Gong practitioners?

I never hear the American media talk about those horrifying crimes against humanity, either.

It's more important to try to make the rape of children legal, it's
more important to destroy the rights of women, than to address the torture and murder of thousands of people?

Copyright L. Kochman, July 15, 2014 @ 9:56 p.m.

I was having problems with Blogger today.

July 15, 2014

I finally wasn't able to write at the last page; the screen wouldn't move past the first sentences of the last paragraph that I was able to write, after I wrote it.

Copyright L. Kochman, July 15, 2014 @ 9:39 p.m.

Monday, July 14, 2014

There was no attempt to arrest Zac Efron for drug possession, even though a lot of people probably knew about his drug problem before the public did.

July 14, 2014

It's also being treated like it never happened; "4" is still the conglomerate's favorite number, and neither Zac Efron nor his code numbers have fallen into the ill repute which they deserve, while I continue to be treated like someone for whom death is too good of a punishment, even though I have never been drunk, never abused a prescription medication, and never used an illegal drug.

Zac Efron got his jaw broken in a fight this past November, when he somehow ended up in a section of Los Angeles in a car with a convicted drug dealer.  They threw a bottle of vodka out the window, and some homeless people thought the bottle had been deliberately thrown at them? Then, there was a fight that the police broke up, and nobody was arrested.

The paragraph before this one is a version of the story that seems to be what several online articles about the incident published.  More than one of the stories also suggested that the "homeless people" started the fight, and that Mr. Efron "heroically" defended the person he was with, who is alternately described as "friend," "bodyguard," "convicted drug dealer."  I guess if the person who is the center of attention is a conglomerate celebrity, it doesn't matter to the conglomerate if someone with whom that person is in the middle of a drug-dealing section is a friend, bodyguard or convicted drug dealer.

If the police broke up the fight, that means that the police broke up the fight, doesn't it?  They're who stopped the fight, not Mr. Efron.

I am not a proponent of heightism.  If a man is not tall, he is not tall.  Mr. Efron is 5'8", isn't he?  Yet the mostly uncritical online articles about the incident suggest that he leapt out of the car and saved the life of his friend/bodyguard/convicted drug dealer, after those mean and crazy (read "impoverished and unimportant to the conglomerate") people attacked for no real reason.

Mr. Efron and his friend/bodyguard/convicted drug dealer weren't looking for drugs?

There is an open container law in California; the police heard Mr. Efron and/ his friend/bodyguard/convicted drug dealer say that they had thrown a vodka bottle from the window of the car, and the police said, "We know that the most important thing to all your fans is that you keep winning 'Best Shirtless' awards and things like that.  It's also incredibly important that none of this affects your ability to effectively promote human rights abuses."  The police didn't say that with their words, did they; only with their actions.

When Mr. Efron broke his jaw, he and a few friends filmed a video which they posted online.  The video was meant to be humorous; it ridiculed me, and suggested that everything that I have ever written describing what happened with Peter Hoehl was a lie, that the only thing that had happened with Mr. Hoehl was that I hadn't had an orgasm when I wanted one, that lack of attention from Mr. Hoehl to my insatiable sexual desires was the cause of my anger and confusion with Mr. Hoehl when I knew him more than a decade ago, and that Mr. Efron's jaw was broken by a woman in, according to Mr. Efron's video, a similarly hilarious incident in which Mr. Efron was punched by said woman when he, Mr. Efron, "came too early" for her.

I objected to that video when he published it.  He was telling another story about the incident then, which was that he had broken his jaw when he "slipped in a puddle."  Since I didn't know what had happened, I didn't know what to think of that story, although I thought that it was probably a misogynist attack.

I don't tend to know what Mr. Efron is doing most of the time.  A long time ago, I concluded that I could assume that, whatever he's doing, he's promoting the conglomerate's agenda and I don't have to waste time finding out if he's still doing that.  The day before yesterday, when I took the train, someone had left a Metro newspaper on the next seat.  The newspaper was left at a page about celebrities.  I hesitated to read it, since my emotional dictionary has the word HATRED listed immediately after the word "celebrity."  I was trying to take a break from my schedule of constant torment, which I'm never really able to do because it is torment inflicted on me by other people and not something I can control.  I did read the page, and that was when I found out that Mr. Efron had gone to Sardinia.

Mr. Efron probably went to Sardinia because the name of the place is like the word "sardine."  Conglomerate celebrities were doing a lot of things like that for a few years, starting in 2010.  Mr. Efron has all the time and money in the world to go wherever he wants, whenever he wants, yet that was what he chose to do, in 2014.  It struck me that Mr. Efron's attitude about women doesn't seem to have changed at all since 2010, even with everything that has happened to women around the world since then.  It was such a nasty thing for him to do that it occurred to me that he might have started doing drugs again.  I did a Google search of the term "Zac Efron drugs," and that was when I read about the brawl and how his jaw had actually gotten broken, which I hadn't known before.

Friday, July 4, 2014

Jokes I can't tell

July 4, 2014

I would like to make a joke about some of the exercising that I was doing
at the Chinatown YMCA before they drove me out with their abuses.  I thought of the joke a while ago, of saying  that the treadmill is the plodmill when I use it.

I can't tell that joke, because of the conglomerate.  The conglomerate has caused many tragedies, the least of which is that I think of jokes all the time that either I can't tell or that are difficult to tell without triggering the conglomerate's hysteria.

Copyright L. Kochman, July 4, 2014 @ 9:38 a.m./addition July 10, 2014 @ 9:19 a.m.

Hands off my life

July 4, 2014

If someone decides that he or she likes something about me, and whatever it is continues to be part of my personality or my life, that doesn't mean that what he or she liked about me then has something to do with him or her.

I am a person, not an amalgamation of things that other people have the right to decide belong to them.

Copyright L. Kochman, July 4, 2014 @ 9:26 a.m.

Tuesday, July 1, 2014

Reprinted from my WordPress blog, "endtherapeofchildren": 06/28/14: Months ago, I contacted the government agency that is supposed to deal with Internet crime, about horrible blogs whose purpose seems to be to create a community of Lena-haters.

June 28, 2014

Nothing happened to those blogs, even though they are full not only of hate speech that has no basis in or reason to be called "constructive criticism," but also of the most offensive epithets, exhortations to violence, including harassment and stalking, and direct threats.

More blogs have since been created with the same purpose, including a fake Twitter page that has my full name and a picture that was taken from a copyrighted video that I published at one of my YouTube blogs, of me talking.  The fake Twitter page couldn't be more horrible; I contacted Twitter about it several times, and Twitter has not removed it.

Copyright L. Kochman, June 28, 2014 @ 11:46 a.m./edited @ 11:49 a.m.


Reprinted at "Things I Wrote," Copyright L. Kochman, July 1, 2014 @ 1:34 p.m.