Arbour HRI Hospital records

December 17, 2014

Female activities therapist, October 8, 2014:

Since the conglomerate began persecuting me, I am often treated as if I'm being rude when I object to being rudely treated.

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Another female activities therapist, October 8, 2014:

On the day that this incident occurred, the person who wrote this note was wearing a purple, V-neck shirt.

I don't remember saying specifically "Don't ever touch your nose in my presence," although that was mostly what I meant.  I understand that sometimes people have to cough, sneeze, and touch their noses.  I try to be discerning about what's happening.
 

There are always incidents that I don't document or confront people about, because there are too many incidents for me to deal with all of them.  This therapist was not so bad, most of the time.  This was her worst day.

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Male activities therapist, October 8, 2014:

I was not disrespectful when I talked about what patients said about themselves in groups.  Other patients talked about what I said about myself, also.  That type of discussion was not discouraged in the groups.

Does anyone else get the feeling that this activities therapist HATED my being smart?

I don't think I'm being conceited when I say that.  People at the far end of the spectrum from me, those with so much less intellect that they are impaired, are recognized as having a lot of life challenges because of it.  There are certainly people who are mean to them, but I think it's generally recognized that people with intellectual disabilities shouldn't be attacked for them.

In one note after another, day after day, this man attacked me for being intelligent.  I didn't know he had done that until I got my records and started reading them; he showed no sign of his hostility toward me in person.  

I could have protected myself better if my right to read my chart while a patient had been consistently respected.  I would have known what this man was saying about me, and I could have spoken to his supervisor about it.  He would not have had one opportunity after another to sell me out to the people who were trying to take me to court to be forced to take more medication.

At 17, 18, 19, and during my other hospitalizations in my 20's, I was also youthfully gorgeous.  I don't even want to think about what was getting written about me by hospital staffpeople then, in Vermont.  I think the life I have had and the trauma I experienced during most of my hospitalizations speaks to what might have gotten said about me. 

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Male activities therapist, October 7, 2014:

It seems like he never dared to confront me directly. Maybe he thought the result would be "catatrophic."


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Male activities therapist, October 6, 2014:

I think this hospital employee got his cue about how to think about me and what to say about me from other staff, and everyone got his or her cue about that from the doctor.  Literally, one day, near the beginning of that hospitalization, he was writing that my contributions were meaningful, and the next day, everything he said about what I said during his group was negative.

I was never antisocial in the hospital.  I was just tired, especially at the beginning.  Also, what was I supposed to do, spend all my time outside my room, making myself a target for being harassed by staff and then called paranoid? This hospital employee never harassed me that I noticed, but look at everything he wrote about me.



Copyright, with noted exceptions, L. Kochman, December 17, 2014 @ 9:21 p.m.