Writing

December 6, 2014

It's interesting what ends up mattering to people.  I have never thought of myself as being a writer.  Most of the time, I don't even think the thought "I love to write."  

I'm not worried that I'll lose the ability or opportunity to write, so this quote from the book "To Kill a Mockingbird," by Harper Lee, is descriptive of how I feel about writing only in the sense that I don't know who I would be without it:

"Until I feared I would lose it, I never loved to read.  One does not love breathing."

Several years ago, I realized this was true of me, that my decades of writing had intertwined writing with who I am from one day to the next, that for me it's like the deepest and largest vein a person can have in his or her body.

If I had to choose between writing and something like being married to someone whom

I loved, my weeping over my inexorable decision would probably blot a lot of pages while I scribbled about my sadness.

Copyright L. Kochman, December 6, 2014 @ 10:55 p.m./edited @ 11:59 p.m.